your. SMILE(:

As 2008 approaches, I feel really empty inside. The feeling of emptiness is horrible, and yet, i seem to have this yearning deep inside me. I want to do something, it's as if i need somebody. I need a special someone to give me a hug and tell me everything's alright. i need just anyone who cares to say it's okay, we're always here for you. It seems everybody is counting down with someone or another, it seem severyone has someone to rely on, or at least someone to spend the last day of 2007. I seem to be alone, yeah i knw theres my family, but they seem so distant. I cant cry in front of them, i cant anything. That's why i'm yearning for someone to fill this empty me. I feel so empty, that i could cry out. I want to scream, scream until i break my voice, scream until i forget all my pain, scream until i am able to get everything off my chest. Because, my heart feels really heavy. It has been a difficult and hard year. I want to erase this year from my memory, ever. I know it's not possible, but i really want to. It's been really unfair for me, and i feel really pitiful. I guess I am pitiful. Holding on to something/one that will nvr come back to me, or nvr be the same. Its 2008 already, the last day of 2007 is always. It's a brand new year, the same old me, the same old feelings, but a brand new start, a brand new goal: Work really hard and score for my EOYs. I can see brilliant fireworks from Marina Bay and also from Mount Faber. Why is that genuine smile that has been lost from my face since then?